Anyone even give a s*** anymore?

So, I haven't updated my blog in forever, and I figure now is as good a time as any. My life has been in a whirwind lately. I had friends break some news to me about the guy I'd loved more than anyone before. It was hard for me to take, and I tried to figure it all out, but I have no idea what's up and what's down in that relationship anymore. When I went to see him, we supposedly "got back together," but I didn't feel that anything was settled, and I didn't feel that we were back together at all, we'd just taken a step closer. During all this, my father had to go to the hospital for heart issues, which was also very hard for me to deal with.
Suddenly, I couldn't get ahold of my supposed "boyfriend" or one of my best friends. And no one felt the need to tell me that they were no longer talking to me, or that we were no longer friends. And then, on top of all this, I was forced to move....
I thought nothing could be worse than last semester, I was wrong. Luckily, Jackson came into my life due to all this, and I still have the one person whos been there for me thru all of this. She looks out for me, and my wellbeing. She takes care of me better than anyone has, and I'm so thankful for that. Also, two of the best friends I ever had since I've been in Tulsa have gotten closer to me, and I'd missed them so much. I'm so glad to have them, its obvious how much they care for me, and it makes such a difference in my life.

So, in conclusion to all this....

I miss my friends... I don't know what I did to deserve what it is I'm going thru, but I'll be here for them if they need me, cause despite what they may think, I care for them a great deal, and if whats best for them is to be away from me for a bit, then I'll just take it in stride.

I'm upset about what happened with my ex... as for him dumping me? I didn't realize we were still together. I just wish we could still be friends, he meant alot to me, and its not a relationship I just want to write off and forget about.

Jackson is a godsend... He brings little bits of joy into my life everyday.

Those who care about me will be there for me, no matter what, I love them, and I thank God everyday for allowing me to have them in my life.